When I first wrote to Dean, I wasn't sure what to expect. I mean, I wanted him to come home to us, but how could I blame him if he didn't? God knows he had plenty of reason to hate us all, to never want to see us again.
He didn't know that I had grown up with no knowledge of him, that all I had was a vague empty feeling that something was missing from my life. My big brother .
It breaks my heart to think of what he went through - taken from his home, raised by strangers, all alone in the world.
Ha.
Let me tell you, meeting Dean was an eye opener! In an instant, I knew he was the strongest, most independent, most... wonderful man ever. And handsome! I'm so proud of him, I want to tell the whole world.
But Dean isn't into playing the "big brother" role. At least, he doesn't think he is. But every time I turn around he's doing just that, whether he really wants to or not.
It's disconcerting because I try to be very independent myself, but how I can be when Dean is forever helping me? If only things weren't so crazy right now, with money issues and Jacki being so unsettled and... Aunt Lorna.
I want Dean here. But not because I need him. I want him here just because I love him. Twenty years can't change that. A hundred years wouldn't change it. Now all I need to do is convince Dean.
It helps that he's fallen for my good friend, Eve. If I can't keep him around, maybe Eve can. One way or another, I want my family all together. And Dean is a part of that family. Sooner or later, he'll be convinced.
I'm not giving up until he is.
Jacki's POV
